0 Suicide Note

When self harm is your only way out.
When the thing that makes you feel most alive, is also the thing that can end your life.
When you feel yourself starting to get bad again.
When you can't drown your daemons because they know how to swim.
When the monsters move out from under your bed, out of your closet, and move into your head instead.
When the nightmare starts the second you wake up and ends the minute you close your eyes.
When the smiles and laughs become harder to force but the tears come much too easily.
When you feel so many things at once you actually feel empty and numb.
When you know someone as broken, scarred, and tainted as you will never be loved.
When the thoughts creep into your mind way too early.
When you know your scars will fade but are unsure about what will happen to the pain and the nightmares.
It's only then that you know you've had enough and it's time to end it all.


--Maria V., 14