0 Love Lie

Never enough,
pretend to be tough,
holding back what's inside,
ignoring the stuff going through my mind. Although love just gives pain,
I fell into it's game.
Family and friends are a part,
I'm trying to protect my heart.
Paralyzed with fear,
trying not to shed a tear,
scared out of my wit,
trying not to quit,
what's going on inside of me,
they'll never see.
I'm trying to keep balance,
this might be my last chance,
to find love that's true,
I don't know what to do.
Is it all fake,
the pain as if I've been bitten by a rattle-snake?
Will I always have the empty space,
that for the rest of my life I have to face?
I bite back a cry,
as I see my whole life is a lie.

--Vepsy T., 14